Change

It's hard to be with someone who always fights with you, argues with you and disagrees with you but in life, not everything is given. You have to work hard for a good outcome of whatever you want to last. It's not easy to fight, to understand and to swallow pride but eventually you'll think and feel that you value the relationship and what you have rather than keeping your ego and fight.

In life, there is that one person who you want to spend your days with and you are lucky if you already found that person. That person who taught you how to care and love unconditionally. Someone who stays beside you through thick and thins, someone who doesn't force you to change nor tell you to be someone you are really not, instead that someone helps you to grow for yourself, for the relationship and for the others as well.

Someone who doesn't really care seeing you with grey hair and wrinkled face but still tells you that you're beautiful. Someone who's willing to give and give up everything for you. Someone who cries when you cry and someone who tells you that "everything will be okay so baby don't let go". Lucky me, i already found that one person for me. That person never gave up on me, on us... I am more than thankful and blessed.

Again, everything is hard but when you put your whole heart with someone or something you really want to spend your life with, all the efforts will be so fucking worth it.

Over

I can't explain how painful this can be. I am feeling that  i could never be happy again. NEVER! Breaking up was never easy. Losing someone is like a taste of hell here on earth. I don't have any reasons to wake up everyday anymore. I lost a part of me. I lost me. I don't even know if what i did was right. I don't know if i can handle this shit. Right now, i feel floating... i just wanna fly away, forget and just smoke this pain away.

Goodbye my Love
Goodbye my Life
I'll love you here in my heart
No matter what
No matter where
I'd still be your  wildest affair
Goodbye to you my darling euphoria
Goodbye to our chimera..

-Lexi

"If you were stranded on an island, who do you wish to be with?"

If i would be stranded on an island i would like to be with my best friend, Dana. Because i am sure that we will enjoy being trap in an island even though we don't have enough food, doesn't have a house, no phone, internet and stuffs that we usually do. I would also like to be with gel but i am sure that we'll just fight over the things that the island lack. 

With my best friend in an island,it will be so much fun. Will wait until someone will help us. Write SOS on the  sand, may be climb a tree to get some food. 

And when the night strikes, we can just lay down, star gaze and talk about anything under the sky. 

Tea

Arizona green tea

My mom bought a box of this tea earlier and i can say that this tea is my new favorite. It does taste so well. It's not over powering like the other teas out there. 

I am not a tea addict or what but i just like tasting and sipping their different kinds and flavors. My ever favorite was the coffee bean ginseng peppermint tea. I love with a little of milk ans sugar. Sadly, i only have 5 bags left. 

Coffee Bean's Ginseng Peppermint tea

So, later morning is the start of my class. I am now a junior, am so happy! As i am back to school, i am also back on buying and drinking black milk tea (without pearls) in Simple Line, a milk tea store in front of our school.  

Simple Line black milk tea (without pearls)

"What is your favorite song as of the moment?"

I won't give up - Jason Mraz

"When i look into your eyes 

It's like watching the night sky

Or a beautiful sunrise

There's so much they hold

And just like them old stars

I see that you've come so far

To be right where you are

How old is your soul? "

"Who is the first person in your contacts?"

I got two mobile phones so i'll be blogging about the two person who are really close to my heart which is my girlfriend gel and friend nico.

In my iPhone, my first contact is Gel but the name here in my phone is ANGELITA. :D I just wanna piss her off. Eventually, she is also the person who i got to SMS everyday 24/7. 

In my BB, my first contact is Alexander Dominic Retardo nico for short. :D He's my friend since elementary. Until now we still catch up with each other by BBM. He is also my friend's deary boyfriend. So, he's like a part of my life already (unfortunately)hahaha. peace retards.  

i am, really! 

Last taste of my vacation

Celebrated tita Cris' birthday at Manila Pavillion last thursday. It was really fun, Bonded with old family friends and got to swim with them too. Ate a lot of food from day to dawn. My girlfriend was also there so  that made me happier. Here are some photos.. :D

the birthday girl

ready to swim

mommy

gel, me and mommy

i love these bitches

yum but i didn't drink

(L-R) vanjie, mommy,chrystal,me and chantal

i still managed to stalk :D

nighty fuckers

"What sports do you play?"

I used to play the sports swimming, volleyball and badminton. Tired tennis and aikido but i failed in it. Reached yellow belt in aikido then i stopped already, i can't seem to find my place in that sport. In tennis, i didn't really enjoyed it as much as i enjoy swimming and volleyball. Right now, i am not enrolled to any sports training but when i have time i go to gym with my mom or go to yoga and plana forma classes to remain healthy (am not fit). I wanna try zumba  too.