Suede

I just can't resist you Topshop :(

"Where do you want to be right now?"

I wanna be in the place where i really belong and feel happy. The place where i know that i can be relaxed and comfortable. The place where i'll stay for the rest of my life being happy and contented. 

Arrow and TS

Because of my cunning skill i have forced my mom to shop some things for me.. yehey!
Last week, she bought me a brown leather bag and earlier today i asked her if  she can buy me some make-ups but instead of buying make-ups i found some goodies in topshop so i decided to buy there instead.

Black Leather Bag with Studs

White studded Shoes

Arrow dark brown vintage-y  Bag

Thanks mommy! i love yew!

Give me Everything

I can't get enough

Everybody knows that i am in love and you know that when someone is in love they can do crazy and stupid things that others might not understand why. I pity them because i know that they haven't experienced being  in love at all yet, maybe,yes, but way too far from what i feel right now. I know i'm young and i haven't experienced everything yet and i am not saying that i know everything but i know what i feel and i know what i'm doing. They can't understand what in love people can do because they have never felt it, they never felt love this strong. I am also surprised about this, about what i feel. I can't control it. I can't get enough. 

I don't know why i still feel the same way towards her even though a lot of bad things have  happened between us already. We're still here, in love, crazy and stupid. I really don't know how to react about this, i keep on asking myself if what i'm doing is still right and if its not i don't really give a damn. All i know is she makes me really happy and sad, and happy and sad and sometimes happy and sad at the same time. I love her so dearly that i can't even control myself on falling so much more with every fight and every reconciliation.

Help

I can't wait to graduate, find a good paying job and get rich...

I was on my way to school yesterday then i saw an old man having a hard time going down from the side walk. It is really obvious that he's feeling pain from walking. I pity him so much but i can't do anything and that killed me. On the other street an old and weak man caught my eyes. He was selling newspapers and his eyes looked really tired, he walks very slow and that scared me because cars are all over the place. Going home on the same day, i saw a kid begging for money, i think he's just 2 years old. He's walking without slippers. That kid don't deserve to be on the streets asking for alms. Seeing them made me cry. Yes, i cried. I just wanna help them, feed them, provide them shelter, give them what they need but i can't because i don't have a lot of money, i don't have extra to help them. I know i can still help even without money but how? that's the number one thing that people need. 

That's the reason why i want to graduate and to be rich - to help needy people. When i watch documentaries about poverty and how poor people live their lives which is really hard and degrading  i just can't help but to cry and promise to myself that i will help them in God's perfect time.

I want to build shelters for street children and send them to school,provide homes for poor families, job for everybody and comfortable housing for senior citizens. I want everybody to be educated which they really deserve. I promise to help everybody that my helping hand can reach. If i don't get that rich i will still help in my own little way because i also believe that money isn't the only  thing that may help them. 

I really hope for a better future, not only for me but also for everybody. I know and believe that every body deserves a good, comfortable life, education, food on their plates and a job that can sustain them and their families.

I will help.

Long enough

Ohh my fucking God! it's been a month since i posted my last blog entry.. fuck that shit! am i that lazy? Been busy with school and Christmas vacay. So yea, Christmas break is over now, back to reality. I really have a bulk of shits to do and it brings insanity in me. I can't stop thinking about my thesis, dieting, saving money and  anything under the sun, its like i am really pressured to level up right now. Fortunately, i am really diligent and persistent to do the things that i am required to do. I feel so happy about that. I hope i will stay like this forever.  I also want to buy a 2013 planner to fix  my  shit by schedule. I feel so responsible! fuck me, right?